The Motherload: Post-partum feels
Having experienced two very different pregnancy journeys, births and postpartum feels with my two kids I am able to relate to both sides of the spectrum.
Both born naturally-Chloé being my first. My epidural eased the pain & my labour wasn't too long. She was a happy baby, besides a stint of colic she was playful & loved people. She fed well & grew well.
My pregnancy with Olivier was classified as high risk due to bleeding at 5 weeks which was followed by 3 months of bedrest. My labour was thankfully quick but painful as my epidural didn't quite kick in on time. Olivier battled with respiratory difficulties. He fed well & grew well but his first 6 months were extremely challenging.
Whilst breastfeeding Olivier I never felt the endorphin flow I received when I nursed Chloé. 3 months post-partum I just wasn’t myself-I became introverted, I was fatigued, I lost interest in everything that I loved before and I was very emotional. As the french would say 'Je n'ai pas eu envie'. After many doctors visits & tests I found help-I eventually felt understood after months of feeling helpless and I slowly started becoming my normal self again. It was a tough few months, but I truly learnt so much about myself and my body. During pregnancy the body goes through so many changes and hormonal ups & downs and post pregnancy it can be a whirlwind to settle those excess hormones that the body releases and they can cause serious havoc.
Post natal depression & depression need to be talked about. People suffering need to feel supported & heard. There is a negative stigma attached to ‘depression’ and it needs to be removed. We cannot control our hormones, during and post pregnancy or even when we are not pregnant. It is not a feeling we choose to have. It needs to be accepted and dealt with properly. If you need to take medication to help balance your hormones, it needs to be prescribed. I was lucky that my hormones stabilised a few months later, but many women struggle for longer and this cannot be ignored or turned a blind eye.
Alongside this I ensured I was eating clean foods most of the time-I strongly believe that good nutrition heals-Consuming wholesome hormone free & preservative free foods. To nourish the body with nutrients it needs, to thrive and perform to its peak. Not only will eating well help rectify and stabilise hormones, it will eleviate other aches & pains within the body and energy levels will be at an all time high-something we need when running after children. This phrase will always stick with me: "The food we eat is either the most powerful form of medicine or the slowest form of poison-unknown".
PPD is a vulnerable topic, but I want people to know that they are not alone and they mustn’t feel ashamed or embarrassed to seek help or talk about their problems.
I couldn’t be selfish-I needed to be the best mother for my children & wife to my husband and it wasn’t fair to be miserable-for myself-for my family.
I am in no way qualified in anything medical, therefore what I write is what worked for me and how I personally feel about this topic. If you need help-seek it. If you are not feeling yourself-open up and talk about it. Don't be afraid and don't feel too proud. This is the first step into feeling better.
If I can touch one person talking about this topic I will feel as though my voice has been heard.
Live your best life-you deserve it.
Olivier Noah born 13-06-2016 @ 11h00 weighing 4,250kg